Friday, April 22, 2016

“Diving is a leap of faith plus gravity.”
Gabrielle Zevin, Memoirs of a Teenage Amnesiac
Trying to ride the waves is becoming too exhausting.  I need the silence of the ocean deep down below.

Can I have a slow day when everything will just feel like time does not exist?  Where I can fully be conscious of my being and the immediate surrounding, where looking for the weird fishes and the landscape all the while trying to stay buoyant is the only thing that matter.

But for now, all I can do is dream and hope.


Monday, April 18, 2016

Be In The Moment

Captured In The Moment
It is funny that typing the first line of this blog feels like sending a "Hi, how are you?" out of the blue message to an ex-love.  How do I break the ice? What do I want to say? 
As I stare at the horizon setting down on the day, I can't help but think about my the past 2 years I stopped writing to share my innermost thoughts.  So, how have I done so far? Let's see...there was the job change, another failed attempt at love, unsuccessfully chased the Aurora, my trip to the European Nordic area, and not to mention the diving accident that left a lasting scar on my left ankle.  In between these moments were drama, a lot of laughters, tons of tears, disappointments, heartbreaks and surprisingly warmth of friendship. Yeah, life is not perfect but who needs it to be?
Two cherry blossoms season after and I look back surprised to see how my thoughts, actions and my priorities have evolved. I can't say my life is so much better now, but I do know that all the experiences and emotions that played in the past two years have made up for great memories to cherish.  I like myself more now, so that probably suggests that I have become slightly better than my old self.  Yup, I still have the hang ups, the not-so-glory days, and admittedly fewer night-outs now. I have slowed down a little bit, figured out it is nicer to smell the flowers, breathe the air, feel the sunshine on my skin, and be in the moment.